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‘Was convinced during a rape’- Mushroom experience story

“I decided to take 7grams in my room in complete darkness and got as comfortable as possible”

Psychedelics help to go off depression and if it does – it can give answer to the questions. “I am adopted and no nothing about my biological parents except what I was able to find through I found the name and a cousin sent me a picture of my biological father. My biological father was shot and killed at gae of 21, assuming suicide because I was as unable to find details.”

“It took longer than usual for them to kick in, just over an hour. It was more like a DMT trip than a mushroom trip. It came on strong all at once. I felt the sensation of dying and I had nobody, ego death, all that stuff but I was observing something and it felt like a memory.”

“I went into the trip with the intention of finding out what is so wrong with me? I seemed to just appear and here I was, like I fly on the wall, watching an event unfold.”

There was a green feminine entity (same one I believed I experienced on another trip but with DMT). She was presented again like this greenish opaque spirit. I could feel what she was and what she felt. She was very caring, feelings of unconditional love, like a mother.

Then appeared a reddish entity, but this time a masculine entity. The masculine entity invaded the feminine entity

“I felt the sensation of being violated. I saw the masculine entity had planted a seed just before the feminine entity could whisk it away. “

When this was happening the feelings were so horrible, atrocious and negative.

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But the feminine entity embraced the seed that was planted. She put love and all those emotions I was feeling through her into that seed.

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I was the seed. I suddenly sprung up in bed. Feelings of violent conviction that I witnessed my own birth and that I am a result of a rape. It just seemed like it made sense. It has never been an idea I have ever thought of before but it seemed like the truth was violently shown to me. It was like the truth was wired into me without words or thoughts.

Then I sprung back to this reality and was laughing and crying at the same time. It was like I was feeling the opposite of the depression that I’ve suffered for so many years. I had feelings of being assured I have a purpose or I was sent here for something. I bathed in these positive emotions until the trip ended. But the trip shook my whole view on my existence, again.

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